Archive for October, 2007

Decision

Friday, October 5th, 2007

Got into a small disagreement with my mom last night…

"Mom"- why can’t u stay with us? what is wrong with saving your salary if you can?

"Me" - It is time mom…I want out…can we not discuss this any further?

"Mom" - No, we cannot stop. you r wasting your money when you can perfectly save it for better use..

"Me" - I just want to stay on my own…

"Mom" - ………..suit yourself

Chaos

Friday, October 5th, 2007

After a very long time,,,

I finally have the guts to stand up to them

Wasn’t what I expected it to turn out the way it is suppose to be….but hey nothing in this world is equally fair…

I gain a few things…lost a few things…got the upper hand on some things….smashed to the bone on others….

regret that it happened this way…definitely…that has been playing in my mind for the last fortnight… it is not an easy decision but I feel the need to make it so…

although the event went to the end with potholes and bumps as high as the mountain, at the very least…i got away in one piece…it is all I can be thankfull off for the moment..

I am still feeling the aftershock although it happened almost 2 weeks ago… which shows how deep the scar needs to be healed and how fragile my state of mind currently….(can’t even think straight to get the words out….shish!!)

I got 1 week before raya to close my job here and 1 week after raya to settle all task before moving on….. its slightly faster than I hoped it would be…but I guess I will SURVIVE…..

O…btw, why the F#$% does anybody care if I am born ill or not? this is my life… let me live on my own!!!