Every morning I wake up
I would look up and wonder
Why the world spins around forever?
Why the sun rises bright and early?
And why the moon shiny and sparkly?
Every morning…
I see my life around me..
And I see all the faces that should mean something to me…
And I ask myself….. did it mean a lot?
For I know nothing of how life should be
and I know nothing why a life should be
I walk a journey that I do not understand the meaning
I took paths and crossroads not understanding why it must be
And I took the consequences and I took chances
Never really knowing the reason it has to be…
Yet I still walk the journey…never ending
And I still uses the road in front of me
And I kept on moving even though I don’t know why it should be…
and I kept on moving …
Yes I whine a lot…
silently….
Yes I scream a lot…
When the feeling strikes me..
Half of me pushes to make a point…
And the other half just trying hard to be ordinary….
Would it be a sin if I jump out of my regular size skin?
Would I be a drama queen If I let myself go free?
My conscience be damned!!! (that’s my half-non-ordinary mind thinking)
I couldn’t care less…
The other half however….. is tying myself up on guilt….(very unhealhty thoughts it says)….
There’s a raging war going on in my head…
There’s a bloodbath in my heart…
And none of them seems to be on the winnings edge….
Questions come and go….
But there doesn’t seem to be a solid answer…..
For life’s most important questions comes from the simplest thoughts and hearts desire….
And that in itself marks a crucial turning point in my life…
Until the day I take another crossroad…..
